Sunday, October 3, 2010

Lost, But Not Gone Forever

Every journey has its detours, dead ends, side quests, and roundabouts that you get stuck in for several loops.  This journey is no different.  As you may know, I spend a lot of time thinking.  Perhaps I spend a lot of time over-thinking.  But that's just part of who I am.  I have to deal with the constant changes in the plans I make, like the ones I'm making now. 

First change:  I dropped my Japanese class.  I know I was VERY excited over it.  Indeed, I enjoyed the class very much.  Unfortunately, it was a four hour class the followed three days of two hour classes.  And each of these occurred after eight or so hours of work.  I even changed my schedule a bit so I could go into work an hour early and have more time between work and class.  All this helped with was to keep me from getting enough sleep.  Oh, and work has picked up this past month and will continue to take up most of my time for the rest of the year.

As my most stressful class, partially because of the four hour length and partially because of the amount of outside work, this is the class I chose to drop.  I had a quiz or homework due every week, which isn't true of my other classes.  It wasn't a matter of if I 'could' handle the stress, it was a matter of 'should' I handle the stress.  This is no clear reason for me to take that class, other than an interest in learning Japanese.  Granted, the same could be said for my piano class, but that class isn't very stressful.

Second change:  I'm not going for my PhD.  This is something I've talked about for a while.  In great detail.  With links.  But those who know me personally know that I have a history of making big sweeping decisions in my life and then changing my mind.  As it's my life and my future, I reserve the right to continue to change my mind at will. 

The first that should be asked is, "What is that idiot going to do now?"  Another is, "Why did that idiot change his mind about it and what does it mean?"  Those are questions for another post.

1 comment:

  1. Sorry I have not been commenting, but I have been anxiously awaiting your post explaining why you decided against the Ph.D., and it has not come yet! So: what made you change your mind?